Freely Scripted Soul

June 19, 2006

Snape’s Worst Memory

Filed under: Harry Potter — Roshan @ 2:06 pm

What I am going to tell now is one of my most absurd theories/ideas!!!


  • Sirius tells to Harry in the Order of the Phoenix that James and Snape were always “at loggerheads”. After James started dating Lily too, there were at loggerheads, but not in front of Lily.
  • The memory in the chapter "Snape's Worst Memory" is Snape's worst memory (obviously). Even though Snape doesn’t say that, JK has said.
  • JK had said before the release of the Order of the Phoenix that we would come to know something very important about Lily in the 5th and the 7th books. We see Lily only in Snape's worst memory.



  • What we see about Lily in this memory is very important.
  • It just couldn’t be one of those bad memories. JK is very particular about her “choice” of words which means it is indeed the “worst” memory. If James and Snape were always at loggerheads – fighting in front of everybody, then why should that particular memory be Snape's worst memory???? So WHAT is special in that memory which makes it "the worst"???(Till here everybody will agree I think)
  • Other than James and co, there was someone else this time around – Lily. Is she that special person who made that memory “the worst”??? This can be the only possible reason (Some of you might not agree but this has to the reason, as JK has given lot of importance to Lily here and JK has made that memory Snape's worst memory, not a random bad memory)


Since Lily's presence mattered to Snape there, you need to consider her presence w.r.t Snape there i.e. what was the interaction b/w them? The interaction was – Lily supported Snape but that couldn’t have made that memory worse.

Snape called Lily a mudblood. Now could this be the reason??? There’s no other possible reason, is there??? (Not as far as I can see)

Snape might not have really minded calling her that then, but after a certain stage, I think he started loving her. Now I think he has this guilty conscious feeling. He thinks he is responsible to her death since he told the prophecy to Voldemort. He regrets to have called her a mudblood once, when she had come to his help. That feeling has made that memory “worst”.

It all depends on the character of a person with what you take as your “worst” memory/day/time. It may be the loss of someone you love. It may also be the time in which you didn’t realize the worthiness of that person and hurt him/her. It may be something else too. It just depends on your personality/character.

JK has said that Snape knows about “love” which makes him more “culpable” than Voldemort. I think he now regrets his "evil" doings and that’s why that memory “haunts” (a strange choice of word??) him.

I know I am going to get a lot of criticism and/or a lot of praise. Let it come. I will be pleased with whatever I get. πŸ˜‰


  1. cool thoughts, i pretty much am considering everything i read today and this one is pretty easy to consider, you made a fair point… those are just excellent thoughts, i couldnt’ve thought up that so i thank you for bringing up that piont….

    Comment by another_marauder — September 16, 2006 @ 11:56 am | Reply

  2. my pleasure πŸ˜€

    Comment by Roshan — September 17, 2006 @ 8:53 am | Reply

  3. I’m tending to agree with the Snape/Lily/James triangle. I can’t wait to see how it plays out in Book 7!

    Comment by ohamanda — July 12, 2007 @ 4:39 pm | Reply

  4. lol i only just read this after reading deathly hallows.
    i dot know how long ago you figure this out, but well done mate. i figured out he was good an all but i didnt figure out he might love lily til like a week before if i remember rightly.

    Comment by Prongs — July 25, 2007 @ 8:35 pm | Reply

  5. well i read deathly hallows the morning it came out like a true harry potter geek lol, but id only jus read the last quarter for the third time when i came across this lol.

    Comment by Prongs — July 25, 2007 @ 8:36 pm | Reply

  6. awesome roshan!!!! u shud actually start writing a fiction now. i am amazed by wat u analysed and u actually tot like JK. i bow down to u!

    Comment by Sush — January 26, 2008 @ 10:33 am | Reply

  7. it has been my pleasure πŸ˜€
    but writing fiction and all is out of my reach as of now!!!

    Comment by Roshan — January 26, 2008 @ 2:50 pm | Reply

  8. you made several good points, but i have to disagree with one i particular.

    the reason that memory is snape’s worst is that, in snape’s anger and humiliation towards james potter, he calls lily an unforgivable name, thus LOSING HER FRIENDHIP FOREVER. i don’t believe that it was snape’s guilt that led to that particular memory being christened his worst, but the conequences he faced.

    he lost possibly the truest friend he ever had and the girl he had loved from a very early age. we discover in the seventh and final book of the saga that lily never forgave him for his words that day, despite his heartfelt apologies.

    when it came down to it, he was a supporter of lord voldemort, and she most definitely was not. lily was concerned for her best friend’s wellbeing, and time and time again encouraged him to desert some of the ditasteful slytherins he asociated with, but he refused to surrender his love for the dark arts.

    by calling lily evans a mugblood, severus snape shattered an already fragile relationship beyond repair. it would become his worst memory.

    this would have only increased snape’s contempt for james potter, for snape most likely blamed potter for his lost friendship with lily. if james had not publicly humiliated severus, he might never have called lily such a horrible name as a poor attempt to salvage his dignity.

    “but why would snape treat harry with such obvious disdain if his love for the boy’s mother was so great?”

    why, harry was a physical reminder of everything severus had lost. the only girl he ever loved, and perhaps the only friend he had ever cherished, grew up to love and marry the man who had tortured severus all throughout his time at hogwarts, the man he hated above all others.

    just imagining snape having to look such pain in the eye every day during harry’s time at hogwarts is heartwrenching.

    and yet, snape dedicated what was left of his life to protecting the name of lily evans potter, and ensuring that her sacrifice was not in vain.

    it’s absolutely moving.

    Comment by jahgaghajghl — August 22, 2009 @ 1:53 am | Reply

  9. @jahgaghajghl. you do realize this was posted a year BEFORE the book came out? so absolutely amazing for coming to those conclusion’s on snape’s background.

    Comment by sdking — August 24, 2009 @ 9:37 pm | Reply

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